So, being this blhag is underused (if you use IE I’m sorry – I’ve meant not to make it look so shitty, really) I decided to post a little on whats been going on recently.
I finished first semester a week or two ago in school, so heres really the beginning of the end. I don’t quite know about graduating from High School yet. I’ve had a really good time the last few years, but at the same time I’ve always just really wanted to get away from it all. High School is so simple, yet really just too complex – I’ve kind of just trudged through it all, never trying too much, never struggling enough, and never having the absolutely incredible times that come with struggling and resolving conflict.
I’ve had senioritis all year, taking a paltry three classes plus one at the U last semester and just two classes with an independent project and a different class at the U now. But people are really getting it, and it’s sort of an interesting phenomena. Some kids just quit, came to school, but just didn’t go to class and played cards all day. It’s easy to get really sucked in when you take an easy load as lots of kids I know did this year, luckily for me as few classes as I took most of them were hard enough to engage me a little.
So I’m ready to kill the rest of HS, and as get away from everything I’ve really ever known about life in growing up and maybe even moving out. But what the hell am I gonna do?
I’m really looking forward to whatever comes after graduation, but I’m really still not sure what that will be. I’m split between college, work, home, away, hard, easy, and all that. I applied to a few colleges – morris, macalester, and grinnell – and I still have partial applications in a few places ($45 dollar fee? suck it!), but I’m not really sure about them. I want to go to college somewhere with a mountain, skiing seems all too much fun to me and I’ve never been able to do enough here on the great plains.
But at the same time I really reject the idea of college and just want to strike out on my own for a bit. Find a job and some roommates, and live a little. Not that college life looks that bad – but I just want to see where I can get on my own for a bit.
Is college really worth all the money it costs for a diploma? Because I could probably do a lot of the learning that I would do institutionally on my own, and tailor it more to my passions and interests. But how much do you really need a college degree to get by in the world right now?
Well, on that note: here’s a list of thing I need to do pronto, in no particular order.
And there we go, this was a good therapeutic writing session. I’ll come back and read this in a few days, see if anything has changed.